Last night I sat out on my deck in my mildewy wooden chairs and looked through Halloween books from the library. It was crisp, cool and delicious outside. I looked up into the trees and was so grateful to still see lots of green.
Still, the acorns are beginning to fall and you know what that means, autumn's approach has begun.
Yes, fall is my favourite season and Samhain makes me giggle and cackle all at the same time. But my body is full of fear and foreboding. I know that six months of physical torture is around the corner.
Winter here is torture for me. Even in the cruel heat of summer, I remember the marrow-twisting icy fingers that have left ghostly fingerprints on my DNA.
I have always hated bullies. I have wanted nothing better than to come across one as an adult and get him into trouble. But what do you do against a bully that is more like a pretty psychopath that traps you for half the year?
One day I will be free. I have one winter left in me, it will be my fourth here. After that? I will run off the BC and live in the woods if I have to. I am no fool. I will not be a chronic victim.
For now, I will enjoy the last days of summer. I will gorge myself on blueberries. Buy heavy sweaters in August, my only armor. Stock up on food, fill my new deep freeze with the tastes of August and enjoy the time of freedom I have left.
8 comments:
There's still plenty of August left to enjoy! Love the acorn photo.
~gorgeous photo of what is to come...i remember your winter of last and only wish for you to savor as you said...the now...prepare and fancy in the gifts of warmth...warm wishes and brightest blessings~
mmm mmm I love Autumn! So many homes here still have real wood fireplaces which makes everything smell that much better...if you haven't already, perhaps try some ginger root tea to warm yourself a bit?
I too have mixed feelings about the fall coming. Here in MA, we still have a good amount of warm weather, but the cool weather will be here before we know it. I, for one, can't wait. Fall is my absolute favorite time of year. I love the cool crisp air. I love apple picking. I love the warm sun with the crisp fall air. I love the smell of fireplaces burning. What I don't love is that winter will be on it's way. Once Christmas is over, I'm pretty much set with winter. Although I hate the hot summer weather, I think I hate the winter doldrums even more. Enjoy the fall!
oh how I know what you mean.
our winters are no where near as cold as yours, but moving to Villa Maria without heating or carpet has made my poor bones ache. It is just so painful, it makes me cry.. plus as you know, no stove to cook on..
but I can look forward to the coming spring :)
ps thanks to Amy for the ginger root tea idea.. might just try that.. Suzie, do you know how to make that?
Autumn just can't be beat, but of course it also carries a double edged sword...
I think next winter I will definitely try drinking ginger root, it is so good at waking up the body and moving the circulation around. Thanks for the suggestion!
Sorry about the wore bones Robyn, I know all about that. Buy a space heater if you need to. My oil-filled ones really helped take the edge off.
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