Yesterday was the new moon and how wonderful we all spent it with letting go and celebrating having less of we do not want or need. I want to thank everyone for all their support and wishes. I did my best to wish back but my health only allows me to spend so much time on the computer. I hope you all understand and I am with you in spirit.
It has been a tough time lately. Everywhere I turn around here, I seem to have to fight with somebody about something. Yesterday I called Eastlink our phone/cable/internet provider to ask them some questions about our phone bill. I call them all the time to add services to our plan and ask them questions. Well yesterday they told me they needed permission from my husband to speak with me. My name suddenly was no longer on file. Convenient that when I want to add extra charges to the account I am on file but when I call to complain my name disappears. And...
PERMISSION FROM MY HUSBAND???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I saw red. I thought I was going to have an aneurism. I had to tell the woman I was so angry I had to hang up, I couldn't talk.
Rage. I am so full of rage these days. Last night I asked the new moon to take it from me. I don't want it. I don't need it. It is like a ghost haunting me. I need rage banished. Anger in small doses is important. It is good for us to stand up for ourselves. Damaging my heart and spirit is where I draw the line.
Yes, I am not happy here and it is quite clear nothing is going to change that. My health keeps getting worse, I keep being physically tortured and I am surrounded by incompetence. I think I am entitled to one more rant:
I sure as hell will not be asking anyone for permission ever!!!!
OK, now I am done. For the moment.
5 comments:
I'm lighting a candle for you and your wish, Suzie.
It is a worldwide thing. I also had to go through the "your name is not showing up, we need to talk to your husband" monologue. I remember the upset well. {hug}
Things are moving in strange ways lately, haven´t they?
Is your Eastlink account in your husband's name only? If so, you may want to have him change it now into your joint names so that you have status as a "subscriber" and can deal with them directly. Utilities do tend to be careful about taking directions from someone who is not officially "the subscriber" because vindictive people sometimes alter/cancel services of people they are angry with. Then the utility gets in trouble with the subscriber for doing so.
Debra, my husband set up the account but also told them to put it in my name too. Now all of a sudden they say my name isn't on the account. Next time we are putting EVERYTHING in my name first. So frustrating!
I totally understand your rage, because I have it to. it comes from nowhere & bursts forth like a volcano.. xoxo holding your hand xo
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