On Monday I asked the The Pagan Tarot Deck
what kind of week I was in for and I pulled out the Nine of Swords. Great! And, they were right.The thing is it wasn't just for this week. I have been restless and upset throughout the night for two weeks now. The other night Reg came to bed and I was tearing at the sheets talking to myself. I feel like there is this ball of unease inside me.
I keep busy, I journal, I exercise... Nothing helps. I drink lemon balm tea at night to calm me down but then have to get up to visit the bathroom in the middle of the night and then not get back to sleep.
I am seriously considering sleeping through the day, just to get rest but even when I try and nap, I can't sleep. I tore my left shoulder trying to put batteries into my electric toothbrush. I am on the verge of really, REALLY injuring myself because I just can't sleep.
So if I seem out of sorts (more so than usual), now you know why. I know all about sleep hygiene, I don't have caffeine, I don't eat at night, I do all things right and nothing helps. I hope this oppressive anxiety is removed from my heart, head and spirit soon. I don't know how much more I can take!
3 comments:
There's nothing worse than sleep deprivation. May Morpheus visit you soon. (Morpheus the God of Sleep, not Morpheus in The Matrix although that would be pretty cool too.)
Wow Suzie, I wish you relief from your anxieties soon. Sometimes when I have unease, I like to listen to my regression therapy sessions on my mp3. It is so relaxing and sometimes you can be whisked off to a happier place, even if it's only temporary, at least it helps me sleep more deeply for awhile.
Thanks Debra! Your wish helped. After writing this I did get two hours of sleep, finally but still feel like a truck rolled over me.
Thank you Ava and maybe I will listen to some music that will help me calm down. I appreciate that. Good idea.
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