Wishcasting: What do you wish to ask for?

Oh the week started off well enough. On Monday I made this lovely blueberry crumble because things had cooled off and I was missing baking. Then yesterday, this happened:



I don't know if the video does justice to the kind of rain that occurs on the east coast but it is unbelievable. I am from Ontario so I am used to cloud bursts but here, it just goes on and on. I had to go to the doctor's yesterday when we were getting this kind of rain. With change I had just enough to almost take a cab to the appointment . Then the weather lightened up.

I should have known better but I went out and practically sprinted to the bus stop and of course, got caught in the rain. Thankfully my new doctor is sweet as a button and didn't care that I was so dishevelled. In comparison, she is almost fairy-like and very kind which is so nice. I have been waiting for my doctor's replacement since November!

On the way home I saw that my bus was coming and it only runs every half hour so I had to run. In my haste upon getting on the bus, I swung myself into the seat at the same time the bus driver started driving and smashed my knee into the seat divider.

I almost passed out. When pain is that bad, it is like everything in front of me goes white. Of course I make no sound. I absorb it all because I don't want people to know, I hate drawing attention to myself. I get off the bus and hobble home in even more rain. I think I am OK but I am really in a state of shock. The pain is hidden from me thanks to adrenaline until I try and go up the stairs. I want to scream. Going to the doctor's is extremely bad for my health.

One of my first serious injuries in life were my knees. When I have fibro flares, it is a common attack spot. It is a very primal fear of injury as a result, taking me back to falling in my tap shoes in dance class against the wall on the hard floor and having to go to the hospital. It was the beginning of the end of me thinking I was indestructible.

So Universe, I wish to ask that you be a little more gentle with me. Let me play in the kitchen and avoid buses that are so painful anyway. Keep me as healthy as you can so I avoid public transportation as much as possible here because it is so horrible. If you are feeling generous, how about improving the bus situation here so I don't get all panicked about missing my bus. How about moving the bus stop closer to my house so I don't have to walk a mile in rain to get to it?

Most of all, I ask for healing energy for my knee. I hobble enough in life as it is.